A Simple Break Will Have to Do

It should not be surprise by now, but as you may have noticed, I have not really been an active blogger for about a month now. There are a number of reasons for this, some of them being silly moments of questioning my blogging capabilities, but the main reason is that I simply do not find it fun to write anymore. This, coupled with the fact I also received the very sweet bonus of suddenly finding it hard to write, has really worked against the existence of my blog. When it is neither fun, nor easy, resulting in a lack of motivation, there really is no reason to even force myself (I have tried), as everything that comes out will be half-hearted.

With this in mind, I humbly announce Anime Viking’s first hiatus.

I started feeling this problem as early as in April, but I tried my best to continue creating posts, which resulted in some experimental Aniblog Tourney posts. I tried my best to keep the façade up, but as time went on, it eventually resulted in where I stand today. It would be very easy to put the blame on the last push in school before graduation, terrorizing me with tons of essays, and while that may very well be the reason, I think the problem lies in me.

You see, I somewhat have high expectations of myself, which sometimes have resulted in me completely unnecessarily trying too hard. Sadly, this continued to build up during school, as I wanted to have high grades for the sake of my future. Normally, this would not be a problem, but when I feel like I have to perform better with each subsequent exercise I receive, it ends in a malfunctioning brain. With no clear idea of what level I should put myself on, I kept on climbing higher and higher. This was my first mistake.

My second mistake was blogging. In addition to school, I had to focus on churning out posts every week, which was an additional stress factor. As the wonders of the blogosphere started to open before my very eyes, I also started comparing myself with others, in many ways feeling inferior in both language and ideas. While I cannot say I created the most high-quality posts, I put a higher and higher pressure on myself with each new one I did.

Or, in other words: stress, stress, stress.

It was not a sustainable situation, but I had to deal with it until graduation.

So with each new day, I slowly started to lose my ability to write.

Now that I have graduated, one week ago in fact, I will just relax. Relax as much as I can and recover my calm. Currently, I am in a gaming frenzy, which is another great pleasure of mine. Watching anime is pretty fun too. Anything in relation to the blogosphere, though? Not so much. I do not blog myself. I do not even read other blogs or vote in the Aniblog Tourney at the moment. It just comes off as dull.

This will probably be all over in a month at most, which is a very long time for a hiatus, but it will have to do. I cannot honestly say this occurred at a very convenient time, especially concerning some of the ideas I had on evolving Anime Viking, but no can do. In the meantime, why not read the blogs I have in my blogroll? There are some really great and “not well-known enough” ones in there. While you go do that, I will plan my triumphal return.

I hope this simple break will do.

23 thoughts on “A Simple Break Will Have to Do

  1. Kai says:

    A temporary hiatus eh? Not a permanent goodbye then. I hope to see you soon again as fellow bloggers^^ Me and my sis just bought a PS3 (late.. but better late then never) so I’m kinda worried about my blogging time too as I will probably be more focused on gaming ;p

    • Marow says:

      If I ever do a goodbye, I’ll be sure to make it proper instead of letting it fizzle out.

      Oh, a PS3! I don’t have it myself, but there are some games I would love to try on it. Sadly, you can’t have it all 😦

      • Kai says:

        I have tons of games I want to play myself ever since the console is released. But I might as well just go slow in moderation with my PS3-ing, as it’s not in my room anyway D: (It’s in my sis’s room) We are dumb enough not to buy a PS3 game yet so the console is sitting in decoration for now, lol.

  2. Yerocha says:

    I noticed you weren’t putting out as much lately. Sometimes taking a break can do you some good, and I hope you’ll come back feeling much better as a result.

    • Marow says:

      I figured I had to do a post about it sooner or later. Much to my surprise, I feel a lot better about it now that I’ve done it. Feels like a weight off my shoulders.

      I’m sure to come back, trust me!

  3. du5k says:

    Try to remember the first reasons that actually gets you started on blogging. It help when I got less than enthusiastic on writing myself. But a break every now and then is also good.

    But I’ve seen many blogs where their last posts are something like these. Hope to see you again soon.

    • Marow says:

      I didn’t start with a particular reason in mind, to be honest. After having read a couple of blogs, I wanted to try starting my own, to see how it would fare (it fared good). Afraid there isn’t a fancy reason.

      Don’t worry, I’m not dying yet. Before that, I want to reach at least one year, haha. 😛

  4. Mushyrulez says:

    Acknowledgement is the first step to [insert cliché here]!

    • Marow says:

      As I said to Yerocha, I feel better after having written this post, so… yeah, might be something true in that, however cliché it may be 😉

  5. Myst says:

    Go have fun and relax. When you are ready to come back and write a post again you will know that it is the right time. 🙂

    I’m glad you will still be on twitter though!

    • Marow says:

      Will do! And then we WILL do some sort of collaborative. I’ll force you :>

      Twitter is scary… it’s very addicting. And I can’t see a reason why I would take a break from it 🙂

  6. I wish you the best of luck in becoming less stressed. In the meantime I’ll see you on twitter.

  7. flomu says:

    No no no you can’t do this

    If you admit defeat, you’ll be down for the count. I’m still in denial and it’s working fine.

  8. Nopy says:

    Enjoy your break, stress is never a good thing. Hopefully you can find the will to write again soon.

  9. feal87 says:

    Come back Marow! We’re waiting for you… 😛

  10. Overlord-G says:

    Congrats on finishing college and enjoy your new life in the job district, if you aren’t already.

    I remember when I took blogging as seriously as you did before reminding myself that it was a hobby and nothing more. I don’t know how you got over this but glad you did. Take your time blogging from now on and post whatever you feel like in the future. I’m noticing you need not worry in terms of popularity so it’s all good.

    • Marow says:

      Oh, I only graduated high school, haha! Starting university now. Seems I forgot to write it.

      Yes, that’s what you have to do: remember it’s a hobby. As for how I got over it, it is just as I wrote in the post: break and time. Building up energy works for me. I also get the urge to blog again if I haven’t done it for a while.
      (regarding popularity, that IS true and I still wonder till this day why I have that)

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